Psalm 37:3-4

    How can it be, that I fail to trust You,

    How do I forget all that You've done

    How do I see Your promises come true

    And still not believe

    Why do I doubt that You keep Your word

    Why do I seek to find my own way

    Why do I worry about life's decisions

    And still not believe

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     Cause if I trust You, and do good

     And dwell in the land, and feed on Your faithfulness

     And if I delight myself in the Lord

     Will You really give me the desires of my heart?

     Who am I, that You're mindful of me

     Who am I, that You should care

     Who am I, to not entrust You 

With my heart's desires

      You made me, and You know my heart

      You are the One who gave me my dreams

      You are the One who best can give me

      My heart's desires (chorus)

    I wrote this song about a year ago, and recently came across it again. The Scripture passage from which this song is based, Psalm 37:3-4, was really the deciding factor for me if I should stay on at Sakeji or not. I had my doubts and fears about staying in a land so far from home, what if I didn't have the needed funds, what if I never got married....

     I felt like this promise in Psalm 37 really answered every single one of my fears:

     "Trust in the Lord and do good, 

       dwell in the land (Zambia)

      and feed on His faithfulness (the needed funds that would be provided).

      Delight yourself also in the Lord

      and He will give you the desires of your heart (marriage and a family)."

     It's so amazing to look back now, and see how true that has been in my life! God is a very awesome, powerful, and faithful God!