My strength compared to His

     For the last 48 hours I've spent most of my time in bed, due to the fact that I threw out my back on Monday morning. The timing was actually pretty perfect because Tuesday was Sport's Day (so no classes), and since I taught all of my Monday classes and almost half of my Wednesday classes I haven't officially been "out" that long. It is hard though, to be lying down so much of the time, feeling pretty useless, as if I'm not pulling my weight, knowing I'm creating extra work for my fellow workers, and not feeling at all like a missionary. 

     Interestingly enough though, the song that has kept going through my head all day yesterday and today was "Just a Closer Walk With Thee" (which we sang on Sunday), where the first line is "I am weak, but Thou art strong". Also, the verses from 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 kept running through my head (although, perhaps taken a little out of context, as I am no Paul!), particularly verse 9: 'And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.' and again in the end of verse 10: 'For when I am weak, then I am strong.' (NKJV)

     I've never had health issues until coming out to Zambia, so the feeling of not being physically able to do something is quite a new one for me. Being weak is a new and humbling experience. I sometimes wonder why God would allow something to happen that would keep me from fully being able to do my job in serving Him, but instead needing other people to serve me. 

    I don't know all the answers, but at least I can rest in the fact that He does. I'm sure there are valuable lessons being learned that I am just unable to see at present....somehow perhaps I am stronger in His strength when I'm weak in my own.

     By the way, in case this blog post concerns you, I can say that I am on the mend, and am planning to be back in classes tomorrow. :)